As many before me have experienced having a baby is not easy. What’s more is having a baby stuck the NICU for weeks on end. I recently had a conversation with someone who asked me if I worried. No one had asked me that before. I’m assuming it’s because the idea of worrying about your baby is presumed especially when dealing with one born so early. Yet, for me, my answer was no.
I remember knowing I was pregnant before the test confirmed. Of course, I called my sister. I then sat on my back deck as a sense of great peace filled my soul. I knew that no matter what happened everything would be fine. Since then, I can honestly say that worry has not entered the picture. I view every circumstance involving my pregnancy and now as a series of moments. Moments that I live in. Although, I’m looking forward to the future I’m not pondering it. I’m not worried about an outcome, I’m embracing the given situation, dealing with it in realtime, and then carrying on.
At times, yes, I have been emotional. As this process is draining in every aspect. At times, yes, I have been anxious to get home. But worry. No. I’m not in control. I never was nor will ever be. So, why worry about things I cannot control? For that matter, why worry about things you can control? To worry is a waste. To trust is to have peace.
There’s a verse that has carried me since the week I was admitted to the hospital, “Don’t be anxious about anything; rather, bring up all of your requests to God in your prayers and petitions, along with giving thanks. Then the peace of God that exceeds all understanding will keep your hearts and mind safe in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7 CEB
If I feel a sense of anxiousness creeping in, I read this verse. I took a picture of it from the bible app youversion so that I can have it at any time. (although I should probably just memorize it 🙂 ). As it has for me, I hope this verse gives you peace as you face the challenges that life undoubtedly brings.